What's the Purpose of Life?

Didn't get much sleep last night. Woke up at 3:23 a.m. and couldn't get back to sleep. Went shopping with my grandparents. Went to pick up my sleeping medication but it wasn't ready yet. Something about waiting for a authorization signature. Maybe the okay for the insurance to pay for it?

Not doing anything for my business today. Going to try to help raise some money for a friends memorial fund. He was killed in a car accident a couple weeks ago and his family needs help paying for the funeral expenses, etc. His girlfriend his super nice. Feel really bad for her and his whole family. Got to be really rough. Sometimes you wonder why all the good people get taken away and the "bad" ones are still left to cause problems for everybody else. Makes you wonder what the whole purpose to life is. If anybody knows what that is, let me know. I'd love to hear it. :)

Medications were adjusted

Hi,
Had a doctors appointment today and he took me off of Fluoxatine. Put me on Rozerem (not sure if I'm spelling that right or not, haven't picked it up yet) for sleep. Hopefully it will help get rid of the sleepless nights. I'm going to have my sister hold on to most of them (except for week at a time) so I don't go through them so unbelievably fast like I usually do with sleeping medication. And, they're suppose to be non-habit forming. We'll just see about that.

Helped my sister clean out her garage today. Well, she cleaned and I talked. Some things will never change. Sigh. Some day (?) I'll grow up and act like a responsible adult.....? Hey, you never know. Stranger things have happened.

Have a good day/night and I'll talk to you again tomorrow. Jessi

The poem from "The Purpose Driven Life"

June 28, 2010
Monday

I'm not exactly a super religious person, but here's an awesome poem from the book "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. The poem is by Russell Kelfer and it starts on page 25.

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You are who you are for a reason, you are a part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design, called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason. Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb, you're just who he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose, and no matter how you may feel, they were custom-designed with God's plan in mind. And bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy. And God wept that it hurt you so;
but it was allowed to shape your heart so that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason, you've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved, because there is a God!

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Like I said, I'm not super religious but I first saw that poem a few years ago and it really inspired me. Have a good day. Jessi

Hi and Welcome

June 27, 2010
Sunday

Hi,

Welcome to "Life with Jessi." I am 30-something years old, live in the Midwest, and I'm Bi Polar and have ADD. I want to keep a blog going to help other people understand the day-to-day struggles of all the highs and lows of being Bi Polar and the concentration issues with having ADD. I just started a business a week ago and will fill you in on how I manage to deal with the situations that come my way with that and everything else in my life. I will try to write something each day. If I get in a low, you may not hear from me in a while. If I'm on a high (kind of like I am now) you may hear a couple pages from me. lol
I'll walk you through my moods and explain the very best I can of what it feels like to be on a high or a low. Or even both at the same time. A "mixed state." Hopefully you'll be able to relate to what I'm saying and not feel so alone, or maybe it will give you a better understanding for someone in your life and you'll have empathy for them.
I am on 4 different kinds of medications and I'm in counseling. I've been in legal trouble and was in the legal system for the past 9 years. Couldn't leave the state, go hunting (carry a gun), drink alcohol (that didn't bother me because I don't drink anyways), and I had to meet with people twice a month to check in. I'm unemployed and on disability. I started this business so I can hopefully be independent one day soon.
If you have any questions or comments for me, please post it on this site or if it's personal, please contact me at lifewithjessi@gmail.com whenever you'd like. I'll do my best to get back to you as soon as possilble. Take care and thank you for joining me on my adventure in life. :)

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: Empathy and sympathy are 2 very different things. Empathy is having understanding, sympathy is feeling sorry for someone. People like me need empathy, not sympathy.